Joyeux Noël!

Beaucoup d'amour.

Jess
xoxoxo

Quatre mois plus tard...

Wow. Ça fait un bail. I just pulled a MJ on you guys! Revenir après quatre mois ;)

En fait, c'est mon frère qui m'a brusquement rappelé l'existence de ce quatrième blog, le seul que j'ai pas encore trucidé, même après quelques mois. En fait, parfois je le regrette... Comme ce soir... Et d'autres fois, j'aimerais pouvoir revenir en arrière et les conserver, ces blogs que j'ai détruit en espérant effacer à jamais ce qui y était écrit...

Quand je me relis, je vois un peu de désespoir, un peu de colère, beaucoup de tristesse... Je trouve ça dommage, parce que c'est pas comme si j'avais eu la vie la plus merdique qui soit... Mais j'ai choisi de prendre le chemin le plus difficile, le plus éprouvant, celui de la rancoeur. J'ai choisi de détester, d'avoir mal, de faire mal. J'ai choisi de me détruire, et par le fait même, de détruire les autres. Je le regrette, mais comme m'a dit un être bien sage par moments ( ;) ): "Le passé, c'est le passé, ça donne rien de le ramener au présent, faut l'accepter pis avancer."

Alors depuis quelque temps, j'ai choisi d'accepter mon passé, et d'avancer. Ça implique de ne pas assassiner ce blog. Ça implique d'arrêter de me plaindre, de m'appitoyer sur mon sort. Y'en aura pas de facile, mais pour le bien de ma famille, de mes amis, pour mon propre bien, ça vaut le coup de faire l'effort.

Je blogue depuis 2003. À temps plus que partiel. J'crois pas un jour bloguer à temps plein. Mais je promets de passer une fois de temps en temps, donner de mes nouvelles, et peut-être même vous ressortir une rare création.

Love,

Yamilia
xoxo

P/S Merci Jay. : )

I am 67% girlie - test (ça on le savait, tsé)

Take this quiz and find out how girly you are. (GUYS TOO) Put x's beside each thing that's true. Each x that you put is one percent. Have fun!!

[x] my fingernails/toenails are almost always painted
[x] during the summer the only shoes i wear are flip flops
[x] my favorite toys as a child were barbies
[x] my favorite color is pink or purple
[x] I did Gymnastics
[x] I love skirts
[ ] hollister is one of my favorite places to shop
[ ] tight jeans are the only jeans i'll wear
[x] I love chocolate
[ ] I've never had a real job

Total so far: 7/10

[x] my hair is almost always straight
[ ] I have at least 8 myspace pictures
[x] I usually go shopping once a week
[ ] I love to hang out at the mall with friends
[ ] I have a real diamond ring or diamond necklace or earings
[x] I've gone to a tanning salon
[x] I've gone to the beach to tan - not to swim
[x] I have at least 10 pairs of shoes
[x] I watch either the OC or Laguna Beach
[x] I change my icon weekly
[x] I wear a shower cap

Total so far: 8/11

[ ] I dont shop at Hot Topic
[x]my cell phone might as well become a part of me
[x] I wear mascara everyday
[x] I've been or am on a diet
[x] bathing suits are adorable
[x] I dont know the difference between a sheep and a goat.
[x] big sunglasses are hott
[ ] I have gotten my nails done before
[x] I own over 10 purses
[ ] MTV is one of my favorite channels

Total so far: 7/10

[ ] all I want to do at sleepovers is talk about boys
[x] I love to have girls do my hair
[x] I give and receive hugs from all my friends
[x] I hate bugs
[ ] carnivals are so fun!
[x] Summer is THE best season
[x] my swimsuit has 2 pieces (it would if I wore one...)
[x] musicians are so hot
[x] you write me a poem and tell me im beautiful and im all yours

Total so far: 7/9

[x] I am self-conscious
[x] I cry often
[x] my car smells like vanilla or cherry
[x] my dishes get washed more then once a week
[x] I dont do sports
[ ] I HATE to run
[x] I squeal when i am surprised or angry
[x] I eat dried fruit as a snack
[ ] I love romance novels
[x] Drew Barrymore is pretty

Total so far: 8/10

[x] I dance a lot.
[x] I usually spend an hour or over to get ready to leave my house
[x] I only have like 5 billion hair products
[x] I love to get dressed up.
[x] every part of my outfit needs to match
[ ] I talk on the phone at least once a day to my friends
[x] I would love to have a photo shoot of myself
[ ] I apply lip gloss 50 times a day
[x] I wish I were a model

Total so far: 7/9

[ ] I wish I could meet Paris Hilton
[ ]I have been something that was semi (?)
[x] I own Uggs
[ ] Country is the best music
[x] I pop my collar
[x] I like to be the center of attention
[ ] guys with Mohawks are crazy
[ ] horses are beautiful
[ ] I'd rather not pay attention in school
[x] Cats are adorable

Total so far: 4/10

[ ] I write my own music
[x] I would love to visit Hawaii
[ ] Valentine's day is so cute!
[x] white is better then black
[x] I wouldn't be caught dead in all black
[x] my closet is STOCK FULL of clothes
[x] I hate the grunge look
[x] I love to read magazines

Total so far: 6/9

[x] I love to gossip
[ ] I had Lisa Frank folders/posters/notebooks as a kid
[ ] I love Celine Dion
[x] my bubble baths are 1-2hrs long
[x] My wedding only needs a groom because it's already planned
[ ] My friends and I are in a strict group. We mostly only hang out with each other.
[x] I like little kids
[ ] Diet drinks are the best
[ ] I'm all about being vegetarian
[ ] I refuse to eat at McDonalds

Total so far: 4/10

[x] I check my myspace everyday (dylg...)
[x] I love life!
[x] I have a lot of jewlery!
[ ] my screen name(s) have x's in them
[x] either one of my myspace names has/had x's in them
[x] I would never want to be the opposite sex
[x] It's not what he/she said it's the way he/she said it
[x] I have more than 3 pillows on my bed

Total so far: 7/8

ADD UP ALL OF THE TOTALS AND REPOST WITH "I AM --% GIRLY


Y'a que 96 questions. Donc 100/96*résultat...

Fear - test...

I Fear...

[ ]gay people
[x] the dark
[x] being single forever
[x] being a parent
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces

[x] heights
[ ] black cats
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] ants
[ ] driving
[ ] flying

[ ] flowers or other plants
[x] being touched
[x] fire
[x] dark water
[ ] the ocean

[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends dad
[ ] my boy/girlfriends/(ex)boy/girlfriends mom

[ ] mice
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cotton balls
[x] cemeteries
[ ] clowns
[x] large crowds
[ ] crossing bridges
[x] death
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists

[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] diseases
[x] snakes
[x] sharks
[ ] shots

[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ] ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers

[x]being alone
[ ] being blind
[ ] being deaf
[ ] growing up
[ ] monsters under my bed
[x] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[ ]blood
[x] someone you love or care about getting hurt
[x] someone you love or care about hurting you
[x] love
[x] losing my love
[ ]Spiders


If you get more than 30 you're paranoid
If you get 21 to 30 you are normal.
If you get 11 to 20 you are pretty normal.
If you get 10 or less you're fearless.
People who don't have any are jerks who want people to think they are tough stuff.